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[Jul. 22nd, 2010|09:48 pm]
Weightless Dolls

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[mia_shit]

Erased last post! Explanation:

My mom has been reading my emails and she can read all of my entries that I have on my Mia_shit account

I figured if I posted crap about me wanting to recover and deleting this account than she would think “Oh wow, maybe I won’t have to force her into going to therapy and make her stay downstairs after she eats and keep starting fights with her after every meal. She obviously wants to get better.” And then I could not use this account for a couple weeks and she’d think I was done with it and then I could come back and be Mia_Shit again, but fuck, I'm pretty damn sure she'll still check up on me.

So, new account with a new Email: [info]the_wintergirl FRIEND ME!
I seriously started crying when people were saying goodbye to me.
I knew it'd only be for a couple weeks but I still couldn't deal with it.
I've been part of this site for years and I could NEVER EVER leave it!

I'm sad that I have to give up this screen name though bc I've had it for so long that sometimes when people come back they recognize it...fuck. Why am I so distraught about a screen name?!?!?! lol. I'm honestly tearing up. Idk

anyways- I love you all!

-Becky

Please forgive me?

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[User Picture]From: foreveryoung420
2010-07-23 04:24 am (UTC)
It's become your identity, your connection to a world you feel safe in, everything you worked for to maintain and its totally understandable how you feel. Like giving up your name or your cell phone...the good thing is, you get to invent a whole new you! Just make sure its a happy you :P xxxx
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[User Picture]From: incywincyalice
2010-07-23 04:55 am (UTC)

hugs and kisses

ohhhhh BECKY!!!!
im so sorry! i swear i would miss you way too much!
i started crying when i commented on your last post about leaving.... dont worry we will make sure everyone knows its you!!! we wont forget you just cause of ur user....use the same picture or something??
you dont need to apologise hun!
i understand now so much better!!!!
alice the camel xxxxxxxxx
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[User Picture]From: 867_lovefool
2010-07-23 05:14 am (UTC)
I know I didn't know you before, but I hope you don't mind me adding you?
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[User Picture]From: unhappygurl82
2010-07-23 08:38 am (UTC)
Ahh - I have been on and off this site - but I love it to pieces! Everyone is so nice and encouraging about everything from eating disorders - to bf crap - like mood swings - to life.

I actually feel like girls on here can relate to me better than my family and friends - although they are wonderful - they don't get the mood swings/depression stuff.

ANyways - Becky i love your new screen name! Did you read the book wintergirls or do you just like winter?
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From: the_wintergirl
2010-07-30 06:37 am (UTC)
Yep! It's from the book <333
Best fictional ED book, in my opinion.
So you have read it too? Did you like it?

and yeah, I know what you mean about people on here being better support. I'm more open here than with my closest friend :/
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[User Picture]From: mia_shit
2010-07-30 06:33 am (UTC)
Not at all :) we can get to know each other.
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[User Picture]From: lola_0
2010-07-23 07:55 pm (UTC)
iv always known you becky :P iv been here for a longg time XD
ill remind the oldies that its MIA_SHIT :D
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[User Picture]From: mia_shit
2010-07-30 06:32 am (UTC)
thaaaaank you ;)
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[User Picture]From: abitbrash
2010-08-31 05:53 pm (UTC)
See you soon, honey.
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