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Winter exercise? A fresh start, a new thinner me to be... [Jul. 22nd, 2010|12:31 pm]
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[location |Hiding from the food monster]
[mood |awakeawake]

Morning dolls! Its 8:30am here and since its the start to a new day im planning a fresh start!
Fresh start = no binge days=me losing weight
I was thinking of 2 weeks of restricting before i do ABC just so im used to the limited cals an i dont fail.
And because ive been eating so crap lately im going to stay between 600-800
wish me luck!

Also does anyone else find it hard to exercise outside in winter?
Do u just resolve this by going to the gym?

Alice the camel xx
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(no subject) [Jul. 22nd, 2010|04:37 pm]
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 s0, im unintentionally fasting - it makes you so light headed - and does anyone else who fasts do you get locked jaw?
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(no subject) [Jul. 22nd, 2010|02:31 pm]
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Minnie Mia's story about the seagull made me think -

What weird things have you told people to get out of eating?

I always tell people that I won't eat at the beach, or down at the park, or on a boat because I'm afraid of seagulls!
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I'm a failure. [Jul. 22nd, 2010|01:30 pm]
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I'm sorry for not posting in a few days.
The reason is because I lack self control and I'm ashamed of myself.

Last night my boyfriend made me dinner. (Pasta and tomato and mozzarella salad.)
So I couldn't get out of it. Then on the way home I went to Burger King and ordered a whopper. (I'm a VEGETARIAN!) 
Wtf is wrong with me lately??
I haven't even thought about weighing myself, because I know I've gained.
UGH I'm disgusting!

Started over at 12 am and I am on hour 13 of my liquid fast.
Not sure how long I'll be on this. I need to lose!

Hope everyone is doing better than me!

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You are all so beautiful. [Jul. 22nd, 2010|12:08 pm]
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My eyes are open wide
By the way I made it through the day
I watch the world outside
By the way I'm leaving out today.

Day one of my fast complete.
All I had yesterday was black coffee, & an orange Powerade Zero.
Day two is going well so far.
I'm sipping on some coffee right now & then water the rest of the day.
I lost 3.2 lbs from yesterday!
I'm taking it day by day right now with my fast, but I plan to go 5 days, then more.

What's everyones favorite 0 calorie drink?
Mines the Orange Powerade Zero all the way, lol.

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(no subject) [Jul. 22nd, 2010|10:57 am]
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 i hate my life.

I have mood swings - i am happy - then all of a sudden sad - i take meds - i go to therapy - yet - the anxiety - and panic of someone leaving me is so scary - and i push the person away - until they can't handle it.

I don't like the depression - no one (esp my ex) understand how uncontrollable it is - and it finally wore on him.

So on top of the eating - i have to deal with this - and self harming

I am not an emotional eater - I just starve.

This is only the 4th day of being broken up.

So, I sit here in my apartment and sleep all day.

I hate my life.
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(no subject) [Jul. 22nd, 2010|03:40 pm]
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14 days to lose 10lbs

Im excited yet worried at the same time, i still have to go to work
I wish i could just hide in my room then this would be easy

I want to do this more than anything......
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(no subject) [Jul. 22nd, 2010|10:13 am]
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I find myself getting in and out of these moods of happiness and hopelessness. Sometimes I'm in a great mood and I feel like nothing can bring me down. Other times though, I just get so low that I break down. It's about all sorts of things. The fact that everyone close to me is currently dating someone and doesn't really have time for me anymore, my weight, my fear of being alone for the rest of my life (that's a big one.)

I haven't actually had a boyfriend since I was 18. That was three years ago. The three guys I've tried to get a relationship started with since then have all screwed me over by picking someone else after telling me how happy I make them feel and how much calmer their life is with me around. I feel like I'm always the loser. So now, I'm just afraid to be in a relationship because I don't know how to do it anymore. Great. Does anyone have 20-30 cats I can borrow?

As for my weight...I don't even want to go there. I haven't stepped on a scale in over a month, so I don't know a number. What I do know is my school jeans are tighter than they should be and I need to get back to the time when they fit a little looser. I haven't been to the beach much this summer, thankfully. Most of my friends are skinnier than me.

On the subject of skinny friends...it's a guilty pleasure, but nothing makes me happier than when I see a friend that has always been about 10-15 pounds lighter than me not fitting in her clothes. It's horrible, but it makes me feel better because I feel like I'm not the only one. Does anyone else ever feel this way about a friend?
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check it out! [Jul. 22nd, 2010|10:57 am]
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my blog is the best distraction to me and i would love you to follow it on tumblr so i feel like im actually doing something worthwhile :L 


check it out comment your opinion critisisms are more than welcome :D
please follow :)

you guys rock thanks :)
stay safe
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(no subject) [Jul. 22nd, 2010|02:08 am]
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Food-wise: didnt do so well today.
but i was down 1 lb from yesterday, but probably gained it back..

sometimes it seems like i dont feel anything.
like, with my boyfriend. he says he loves me so much and that hes so thankful, but i dont ever feel like what im saying in response is even meant.
i dont know if i truly love him, or if i just want to be loved.
and i dont think its fair to him to be so unsure about how i feel about him, and keep leading him on with words that im not even sure i mean..

oh, the confusion.
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